February 2011
78 posts
January 2011
41 posts
“I’m awake and feel the ache. But I wish I’d see a field below”
I am exhausted.
I really do feel like I’m going insane sometimes. I’m pretty sure everyone in my Beta club whole-heartedly believes that I am on drugs. I mean I can’t completely blame them. I’m already pretty “out there” compared to all the other Alabama teenagers. Plus I am almost always sleep-deprived. And you know, I kind of act insane. All the time. Not like loud and...
School meeting tomorrow, I have to go and get some photographs printed first. Then after, dance partaaay at Jordan’s. Woohoo! Saturday- up early, lunch at the Coffee Well, all day hang out with Emily. Sunday church and then Monday, regular life and lame stuff like that.
I'm posting more than usual today.
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And this
Hey, more words.
Friday I was at Asahi, my favorite sushi place and as I was leaving the owner chases me down to ask where I got my key chain. My key chain is an elaborate yellow Chinese knot. She probably noticed because while common in China they are not very well known in America, especially the yellow ones. (Red means good fortune, yellow is happiness.) I told her I got in China and one of my students...
So last night I was lying in bed and trying to sleep and my leg starts insanely itching so of course, I scratch it. Then, all of a sudden, it starts stinging really bad so I turn on the light to see what’s up aaaaaand yeah, I was bleeding, pretty bad.
I then proceeded to have some terrible Black Swan flashbacks and couldn’t get back to sleep foooorever.
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And they say that Christians are hypocrites.
I was talking to someone about Sufjan Stevens and they were asking me about lyrics to one of his songs because I’m completely obsessed with his music. And I was explaining on of his songs and how it’s about Jesus. And they got really mad because they were convinced Sufjan was singing about a guy and that he was gay. And I was like no, he’s been clear in interviews...
“If I let this go then it’s all in my past but if I hold onto it I still...”
– John Reuben
Courage, dear heart.
Just remember, if someone is pulling you down it only means that you’re above them.
P.S
I love the sound of Ben Gibbard breathing on “I will follow you into the dark” just before the words start.
“Chrystal, how can your body be so weak when your heart is so big?”
♥ I have great people in my life.
Awhile back a friend of mine totaled his car. His new car looks like the batmobile. I’m glad he wrecked. I rode in it today. I felt like fighting crime. Of course it was 7 a.m in Duck Springs so there was no crime. We talked about Black Swan. It’s been a week since I saw it and I still get jitters thinking about it. Baaahhhhhhhh. It’s like a terrible disease. I kind of want to...
"Judge not or you will be judged
for what judgment you judge with, the same judgments you will be judged by. And with the measure you use, it will be used against you. Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first...
“Purity of heart is to will one thing.” -Soren Kierkegaard
“Purity of heart is to will one thing.” -Soren Kierkegaard
“Purity of heart is to will one thing.” -Soren Kierkegaard
“Purity of heart is to will one thing.” -Soren Kierkegaard
“Purity of heart is to will one thing.” -Soren Kierkegaard
“Purity of heart is to will...
WatchYesh, yesh, yesh.
Black Swan and Sushi with my sister. Black Swan was needlessly pornographic which really threw me. I don’t even like it when people kiss a lot in movies. Other than that the story was really good and the dance scenes were amazing. Sushi was, of course, super great. My sister introduced me into a new roll. Yay sister! We went back to her house, her and Ryan, (her husband) play-argued...
I’m pretty sure getting over being sick is 50% mind power, 40% sleep and maaaybe 10% medicine.
Also, a little mouse keeps making racket in the closet but I don’t mind.
I will not get sick.
I will not get sick.
I will not get sick.
I will not get sick.
I will not get sick.
I will not get sick.
I will not get sick.
I will not get sick.
I will not get sick.
I will not get sick.
I will not get sick.
I will not get sick.
I will not get sick.
I will not get sick.
I WILL NOT GET SICK!
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This pretty much sums me up.
Mar-18-10
I have a lot on my mind. As per usual. My mind is conflicted and my heart is aching. I’m having to make a lot of important decisions, all at once, and I’m so bad at making decisions. I mean I’m great at knowing what I want, the problem is, I want a lot of things. I can never make up my mind. I have so many options and I just can’t fathom it. There are so many things...
So, one of the things I believe in, among many, is that God loves us all and finds little ways to show us. You can tell me that it’s just the weather but every time it snows, it’s for me. I just know it down in the deepest recesses of my soul.
After I get back from Tennessee,
I have to
Call Emily.
Message Jordan.
Unpack.
Finish applications for China, College, Internships…
Finish up school work.
Clean the house and cook dinner.
Meet up with Emily.
Turn 18/ Hang out with my best friend.
“Those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not...”
– Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche
Let’s live here someday.
In 2011;
“Be my vision, oh Lord of my heart. Be my vision, oh Lord, forever.”